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Hello all my blog readers, thanks for coming back. I can't believe it's almost September! Where did this summer go! I'm kind of looking forward to fall though, I love jeans, sweatshirts and ugg boots weather! Don't forget about delicious soups and all things apple!

Well I said I would be posting some exciting news. No, I'm not pregnant people. Come on. But seriously. I've started the C25K program. C25k, is a program that's been designed to get just about anyone from the couch to running 30 minutes in just 9 weeks. This is HUGE to me. I don't run, never been a runner EVER. Not even in High School. I absolutely hated when we had to run the mile. Pretty sure my best time doing that was 7:58. I'm super excited for this though. I needed something new. Needed to get some exercising in. I have been doing it after I put Ellie to bed at night and it's only 30 minutes (approx). I will keep you posted as to how it's going. Right now, I love it!

It's always been a "secret" goal of mine to run a 5K or a 10K but I've always been to scared to say that secret out loud. So, I'm posting this here. I will be running the Fargo 5K on May 18, 2012. I know it's forever from now, but I've decided I have to do this. Who knows, maybe by then I'll be ready for the 10K instead. We'll see, but for now I'm going to do the 5K. Wow, I have butterflies just thinking about it. I don't know why it makes me so nervous, maybe because it's just outside of my norm. I don't know.

I feel like a whole new person. I sometimes have to stop and go WHO IS THIS PERSON! I went shopping at Old Navy on Saturday and bought medium shirts. MEDIUM! I wore XXL ON shirts and now I'm a Medium. I just can't believe all that I've accomplished this year.

As I type all of this to you, I think I've hit a plateau (had one a while back but it didn't last this long). I'm bouncing between 149-150 and have been since August 20. But it's OK, because I know I will break the plateau and continue on my journey. I'm going to just keep doing what I'm doing.

I have so many people that look up to me and I appreciate it and it makes me even more proud of myself and more determined to do this. Because I am just a normal person that eats normal foods. I don't eat fancy good for you stuff. I eat ice cream practically every day. I eat pizza, hot dishes, hot dogs, hamburgers, pizza rolls, egg rolls, rice, mashed potatoes. I eat all that stuff, I just do it in moderation. I don't eat fast food anymore, I don't drink pop anymore, I don't eat candy and junk food. (If I need a chocolate fix, I will have one or two M&M's or a Fun Size Snickers etc). I just don't cheat, I stay on track. 24-7. I would rather not screw up the entire week I just worked so hard for by eating something terrible on the weekend. This is me, this is what I do. PLEASE don't get me wrong. I would LOVE to devour this:

But I don't, if it was in front of me and it was torturing me, I would have a bite. That's it. That's how I CRUSH those cravings and continue on.

OK, enough about my weight loss journey. Lets talk about my crazy kids!

I took them to the park on Friday evening and I want someone to tell me when Tucker grew up so much. He was climbing up the rock wall like he'd been doing it all his life (all two years of it). He was up the slide down the slide, back up the rock wall. Wanting to crawl across the monkey bars but poor guys arm's are too short. Really, when did this happen?

Here are a few more pictures from Renae Alane Photography, doesn't she do amazing work! Thanks Renae, I always love love love working with you. If anyone ever goes to her please tell her I sent you!

Guess What?

Something exciting is happening...stay tuned.

Flusterated.

I've been very uninspired lately and it's due to my weight loss slow down. I want it to be as fast as it was in the begininng not this .5 to 1lb a week crap. But realistly that just is not going to happen and I have to learn to deal with it. I even emailed my "weightloss coach" lol (love ya Ash) and was hoping for an answer to speed up this process again, even though I already knew the answer. So i'm still losing, just not as fast. I'm in the 140's now - and that pretty much is freaking awesome. So slowly but surely I'm still trudging along. I will not give up. I will get to my goal eventually. It will happen and it will feel fucking amazing and anybody that doubted it can kiss my ass.

One thing that is making me smile lately is I have some people that have been inspired by me to begin there weight loss journey. I want them to know I am so proud of them and wish them the best of luck. I hope that by reading my blog, it will help them when they hit bumps in the road. Good luck, you know who you are!

Tucker is his usual stubborn stinkery self and miss Ellie pants is a pro at eating baby food now pretty much.

I've been spending my days on Pinterest lately. I love it, it's fun and I suggest checking it out if you have some free time on your hands. Basically it's a virtual bulletin board you can "pin" your ideas, styles, thought etc... on. If you are interested, let me know, send me your email and I will send you an invite.

I leave you today with a "Pin" I found on Pinterest.

Please mom, please!

HEY - 140's! Guess what.....I'm coming for ya! 150.5 this morning when I stepped on the scale! Woo hoooooo!

I have found that these are the foods I can not live with out.

Barry's Bakery Twists

Fruit

Ice Cream Sandwich's, Float Bars and WW Ice Cream Bars

Lite Bread, Buns and English Muffins - GOD BLESS YOU!

Eggs

Grilled Chicken Salads

Fat Free Broth (for cooking)

If it weren't for these foods, this weight loss journey would be a lot harder on me. I am so glad there are a lot more healthy options out there now. Hopefully in the years to come there will be even more!

I took a picture of my old belt this past weekend. WOW what amazing results. I really wish I would of taken pictures/measurements when I started this journey.

What I ate today:

Breakfast - Fried Egg Sandwich and fruit 3pp

Lunch - Southwest Chicken Salad with Raspberry Vinaigrette and a popover from the Wilkin 12pp

Supper - Thinking I'm going to make Tomato Soup and Grilled Cheese and a glass of milk 9pp.

Dessert - Chocolate Cupcake with Chocolate Frosting 3pp

What I ate yesterday:

Breakfast - Fried Egg Sandwich and fruit (I just love this breakfast because it's only 3 points.)

Lunch - Grinder 4pp

Supper - Pizza Ranch Pizza and milk 19pp (Mmmmmm pizza!!!)

Dessert - Ice Cream Sandwich 4pp

My dear little Ellie pants, I'm soooo in love with this age! The age where all you have to do is look at her and she flashes you a big ole toothless smile! She's not crawling yet but she likes to roll from here to there. It's pretty entertaining to watch her at times. I know all to well how fast it goes, so I'm not in any hurry for her to start crawling. She is kicking butt at eating though. We've given her some things other than baby food and she loves it. She has tried cooked carrots, a french fry, apple pie. She's loving puffs, yogurt melts and mum mum's!

Tucker, Tucker, Tucker. Ever heard that family guy commercial where Stewie goes: Mom. mommy. mum. Mom. Mommy. Mommy. Mom. Mum. Mum. Mommy. Lois says: WHAT!??!?! Stewie: Hi *insert giggles*. WELL, that's Tucker. Seriously, this child will say my name over and over and over. I say what, and he says nothing. Some days I swear to god, someone is feeding him quarters because he can talk for an hour non stop. Jamie says I need to learn to tune him out (which mind you, he can do pretty well). I have to share this cute story with you. Over the weekend, we went out to Grandma and Grandpa Rezac's because Auntie Arica was down with Anna. Well Tucker wanted some juice, I said no because he had 2 glasses already earlier that day. So out of my little 2 1/2 year old's mouth comes those dreaded words. Please mom, please. Please mom, please can I have some juice. I stood there and just smiled because I wasn't expecting to hear please mom please for another at least 4 years. Tucker got to go for some rides on the Prowler with his dad and Jamie said he grinned from ear to ear the entire time. He sure loves hanging out with his dad!

We had Ellie's 6 month pictures and some family ones taken this past Saturday out at Lake Elsie. All I can say is, I have one amazing photographer. Renae Alane Photography seriously AMAZING! I can't wait to see the entire gallery. But here are some that she posted on her facebook page. I totally think that the one of Ellie and the lemonade stand belongs in a magazine. I just love her work. It takes a bit of planning but we sure come up with some cute ideas!

Read this! It's SHOCKING!

So yesterday I went out for lunch at our local Mexican joint El Toro. Got 2 hard shell tacos and spanish rice. Had some of the tortilla chips, some of the rice and ate both of the tacos. Then the person I was with said we are getting Dairy Queen. He basically twisted my arm. Kind of. I knew El Toro was high points. My meal there was 17pp and I got a small sundae at DQ. Also knowing that was 7pp. I ate it all. My breakfast was 5pp. Guess what. I used all my points by lunch. WOW, I've never ever ever done that before. NEVER.

All day, I honestly thought about it. Kept explaining it over in my head it's OK. You can do that. Well for supper last night I had 2 pieces of Jelly Toast for 3pp. So technically, I went over by 3 is all, but still what I did yesterday is not normal for me. Fast forward to this morning. Stepped on the scale expecting the worst. Well, it read 151. Are you freaking kidding me! That's a pound and a half from Wednesday morning!!! I've heard about "shocking" your body and that's just what I did yesterday and thankfully it worked to my advantage.

Last Thursday we had our company picnic. It was at the Redhawks game in Fargo. We took a bus up to Fargo. We had an amazing time is all I can say for the night. Not quite sure if there really was a baseball game going on because I was having so much fun just socializing but I heard there was.

Bus ride home took us to Aber bar which is never good for anyone. And then back to Breck.

The next day was pretty rough, but then again well worth it because it was the day my new cowboy boots came (my birthday treat to myself). Well I had to try them on...RIGHT?

Well after all those shenanigans, I picked Tucker up from Daycare went home and packed and we were off to the lake for some R&R! Mr. Nottyness was not around for the most part for the entire weekend which I was pretty happy about. He had a blast out there. He's my little fish - he was pretty fearless in the water. Even to the point when we were out jumping off the pontoon he started doing twists!

Miss Ellie Pants was amazing out at the lake for her first time too. We didn't take her in the water because it was pretty chilly at first when you got in, but she enjoyed watching her brother play around. She has also in the last few days started eating some more solid foods. She LOVES them. Yesterday she wanted nothing to do with her baby food and wanted the puffs instead. She's starting to drink out of a sippy cup and is amazing at that as well!

I snapped this picture when we were leaving that lake. I think it's pretty precious. I kinda love these 2 little stinkers.

I rode an Elephant.

The circus was in town on Wednesday and we took the notty one there. Thankfully it was a success. He did great, other than when he figured out that if he said "I have to go potty", he would be able to get up and walk. So after 4 potty trips we finally said, no you don't have to go right now. Tucker enjoyed a snow cone thanks to his Auntie Tracy Burchill.

Mommy gets to throw away his shirt thanks to this Cherry flavored snow cone...but he enjoyed it so I'll live.

So intermission comes and they had elephant rides...not sure who was more excited to ride the elephant, Tucker or me. Never mind I know it was me. It was very cool, and I'm thankful for Tucker being too young to ride it himself. Thinking I would of looked very uncool riding the elephant with a bunch of young kids.

Ok so I still look uncool. But I can now say I rode an elephant! All in all, I'm glad we took him. I'm sure he won't remember it but I have pictures to show him someday.

I would just like to also mention, that I don't like to look at dudes in spandex doing a handstand split. It's not pretty and I'm not sure when that vision will leave my head.

I want to talk about how I look at my weight loss. If you were to ask me, how much weight do you have to lose yet? I wouldn't have a clue. Throughout this entire journey I've never known exactly how much I have to go yet. I think that helps me. All I know is that one pound at a time my goal just keeps getting closer and I know that one day I will be there. When? I don't know that either. I haven't said to myself, well if I lose one pound each week, I will be at goal by this day. Again, it's one day at a time. Thank you all for following me, and this journey. I appreciate all the compliments. They truly truly TRULY help me keep going!

What I ate yesterday:

Breakfast: Breakfast Sand which 4pp

Lunch: Totino's Pizza Rolls and pop chips 8pp

Supper: Grilled Chicken Salad and Small Strawberry Sundae 15pp

Snacks/Dessert: Barry Bakery Twist and Float Pop 2pp

I want to give a shout out to my friend and one of my biggest WW support peeps, Laura Iverson, she hit goal yesterday! She lost 35 pounds since March 2, 2011. Way to go LAURA! So proud of you!

I find this fitting for my post today.

Only One Pound

Hello, do you know me?

If you don't, you should. I'm a pound of fat,

And I'm the HAPPIEST pound of fat that you would ever want to meet.

Want to know why?

It's because no one ever wants to lose me;

I'm ONLY ONE POUND, just a pound!

Everyone wants to lose three pounds, five pounds or fifteen pounds, but never only one.

So I just stick around and happily keep you fat.

Then I add to myself, ever so slyly, so that you never seem to notice it.

That is, until I've grown to ten, twenty, thirty or even more pounds in weight.

Yes, it's fun being ONLY ONE POUND OF FAT, left to do as I please.

So, when you weigh in, keep right on saying, "Oh, I only lost one pound."

(As if that were such a terrible thing.)

For you see, if you do this, you'll encourage others to keep me around because

they'll think I'm not worth losing.

And, I love being around you - your arms, your legs, your chin,

your hips and every part of you.

Happy Days!

After all, I'm ONLY ONE POUND OF FAT!!

-Author Unknown

Why I don't give up.

I'm already down a pound from yesterday. Exactly why I don't give up. If I would of, I probably would of been up 2 more pounds and had to back track that much more. This is just my mentality. It works and I will keep at it. I'm almost in the 140's. I can't wait!

A lot of people ask me what I eat. Well here is my meal plan for today.
Breakfast: Breakfast Scramble (eggs, hashbrowns, ham, cheese, peppers, mushrooms and onions) 2 pieces of toast and some fruit. 6pp
Lunch: I had Rice and steak with Stir Fry Veggies and some corn on the cob. 8pp

Dessert: I had one Barry's Bakery Cinamin Twist. 0pp and I'm going to have a float pop later for 1pp
Supper: 1 Cup of milk and I'm making Meatball Subs (I will have 2). 13pp

Total for the day 28 points. If I'm still hungry I may have another barry's bakery twist to fill in my one point gap ;)

I could break all this down to exactly how I make it but I don't have time today. I promise I really do eat the same things I use to eat. I just adjust the things I cook with.

Ellie had her 6 month well baby appointment today. She did great, I always hate bringing the poor kids to them, I wonder what they think. Mom, why are you letting these ladies hurt me :( While we were waiting for the doctor to come in, she fell asleep in my arms. I could of seriously sat there another 2 hours holding her while she slept. I love that little girl. Ellie's height was 25.75" 43%tile, weight was 17lbs 9oz 76%tile (my little chunky monkey) and head was 16.75" 46%tile. She's absolutely perfect and we got the go ahead to start anything grandma can eat without teeth in (in the words of Dr. H). She doesn't have to be seen until she's a year old now. Wow. A year, that's never going to come. Right?

Waiting for the Dr. I hate shots.

Tucker had a great night actually, he didn't get in much trouble thankfully. I just keep reminding myself this is just a stage, this is just a stage. Tomorrow he gets to go to the circus! What a lucky little boy. I hope he has a good time. I've been waiting for these days of being able to bring him to events like this!

I give up.

Well I give up. I'm throwing this week out the window. I gained one pound on Saturday and one on Sunday. No clue as to why except I don't think I drank enough water. So screw this week I'm going to eat whatever I want to and just say frick it. UM, HELL NO! Why on earth would I even think of doing that. A. I'm pretty sure it's water weight and B. Why completely just trash the entire week just because I gained a pound or 2. Instead here is what I'm doing. Drinking A LOT of water and eating a few more healthier choices for food. Even though I didn't go over my points this weekend, my food choices weren't the greatest (hot dogs, beef burritos, beer). So my point is, just because I gained doesn't mean I have to give up this entire week because of it. Suck it up, move on and don't dwell on it. Fix it. Here is a great article about the scale (that evil evil machine!) http://www.healthdiscovery.net/articles/scale_lies.htm

Tucker update. Well he was almost put up for sale again this weekend. Wow. Whoever's kid this is, I would appreciate you coming to get him and returning mine anytime now. Notty, notty, notty. Any tips on how to get a child to listen? I'll take em! Tucker is potty trained so he is no longer "fenced" in the living room. So anytime I leave the living room he thinks he needs to follow me. Well not much for him to do except find trouble in the kitchen/bedroom. So I say Tucker, please go back in the living room..."I don't want to". That's the response I get every single time. I say - I don't care if you don't want to, you do what Mommy says. I get "I don't' want to". And then I have drag him back into the living room, kicking and screaming and then he has to sit in time out. Over and over and over. Not fun. Mommy's stress level is at a 10. Very frustrating.

Words I never thought I would say:

Funny all these have something to do with his new potty training.

Tucker don't put your hands in the toilet.

Tucker get your hands off your wiener.

Tucker get your hands out of your butt (right after he shit by the way).

Tucker get your hands off your wiener.

Tucker don't put your hands in your pee.

Tucker get your hands off your wiener.

Tucker you can't pee in the middle of the yard.

But I do love this little boy, he still knows how to melt my heart by just saying I love you mommy. He is constantly asking for hugs and kisses so it does make up for a lot of the nottyness.

Miss Ellie is kicking butt at sitting and eating. She's getting much better at both! She seriously is so stinken smiley I just can't take her cuteness sometimes, well all the time!